As I sit here holding my new little Peanut.... I can't help but think about how lucky I am. Lucky to have 2 special spirits that are all mine!
My little man is so amazing... I don't know what I would do without him in my life. In the 5 years that he has been apart of our lives, he has taught us so much. It's amazing how parents are suppose to teach their children about life.... but it's the children who do so much of the teaching. I never thought that I would get so excited about my little man learning the simplest things.... but I find myself getting so excited when he fallows simple directions I give him... like throwing something in the trash.... or putting toys back in his room. For most 5 yr olds these are pretty simple things... but for him they are big. I'm sure some parents think it is strange how excited I get about the small things.... but I know how much harder it is for him to figure things out. I do have the days where I wonder when he is going to talk.... or when he will learn to jump and run.... or dress himself.... or if I'm ever going to get him potty trained. I think about how so many of my friends have children that are years younger then him, and can do most of those things already. There are days where I wish he didn't have Down Syndrome. But I know how special he is and how lucky I am that he is mine. I know that I was chosen to be his mom for a reason. He is the most loving Little boy. And he is perfect just the way he is!
It has been great having this new little lady in our family. I have truly enjoyed the past few weeks with her. Being able to do a VBAC (vaginal birth after c-section) with her was something I needed. Because of the situation with little Robert (having a c-section and him going straight to the NICU) I didn't feel like I had had a baby. Being able to push her out, see her, and hold her immediately, was truly amazing. I had been afraid that by doing the VBAC and being able to do all those things with her right away, I would have a stronger connection with her then I had had with lil Robert. I didn't though. It was a totally different experience though. I got to watch Robert give her a bath (the nurses in the NICU gave lil Robert his).... I got to have her in our room the whole time.... and best of all she came home when I went home. But with all of the stuff we went through with Little Robert..... how could I not have a strong connection with him. They are both so special to me. I can't believe how blessed I am to have them both.
I'm also so blessed with an amazing husband. I can't believe we have been apart of each others lives for 12 years now. We have had a lot of ups and downs.... but no matter what I know that he loves me. I can't imagine my life without him! He loves me for who I am... he takes care of meand our children....he makes me feel special....he tells me how beautiful I am.... and so much more. He is an amazing daddy! Whenever he is home, little Robert is his shadow... he loves his daddy so much! I can't believe I get to spend forever with him!